For sometime, I've been feeling stagnant. If I think about it with honesty, when I flunked out of my freshmen year of college, I lost my sense of purpose. As a child, I knew I wanted to be a doctor. Everyone around me knew that my dream was to be a doctor. Being academically dismissed from UIC really took something away from me. Even though I stayed in the sciences and kept going through junior college, the zeal and clear cut direction I once had was gone.
Fast forward to a bachelor's degree, and soon to begin master's program, I still feel lost. I know that I don't want to work a 9-5 in a cubicle with fluorescent lights beaming down on me for the rest of my days. I understand that I have to start somewhere, but I want to enjoy my life. I want to feel like I'm doing something of value, not just monetary, but something spiritual!
I stumbled across the Happy Black Woman site and this reset course. It appealed to me because it's coming from another black woman, and it's meant to help me rediscover who I am, outside of what the expectations of me are. While, I plan to do the exercises in a private notebook, I want to use this blog as a marker of progress, if any, made as I go through this program.
I don't want to enter 2015 with the same heaviness, or the feelings of failure. I want to be a better version of myself by the time I turn 26 this coming May. I know that I can't expect a program to change me instantly, but I need some guidance and hopefully this is a step towards getting what I need.
Here's the link below:
http://happyblackwoman.com/
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